The lowdown

So here's the thing. We've been moving. Into a new house. More on that later.

Why, oh why, when I come here, do all of my funny thoughts, ideas, sentences, fall out of my head and stare at me blankly? Like they were never in my head to begin with? I want to say things here, and I will. Even if I have to grab their grubby little hands and force them to admit they are mine.

I want to tell you(who?) that I have quit my job, quit school, and started a business. Well...the business is at least in the beginning of being started, but still. Amidst all the quiting and starting I am mostly excited. And a little scared. Mostly I think I am scared that I will wake up tomorrow and be like Elsa? What. have.you.done?
But, in the last 2 1/2 weeks of being unemployed I have been in such turmoil about what to be doing with my life at this point, that really, that panic is nothing new to me. I know what to do with that panic.

So. The business details. I want to make stuff and sell it. More specifically, I want to make beautiful things and have people buy those beautiful things. I want to cultivate relationships around those beautiful things. I love art, design,....and long walks by the beach. Seriously though, I have so many ideas floating around of things that I want to design and make, and this business is going to be me doing just that. My first project is jewelery oriented. I am making pendants out of resin. Right now it is a lot of trial and error - but I am mostly overwhelmed by how well it is going, and the peace I feel about going down this road. I'll post pictures as soon as we get settled into the new house and get our Internet going.
So that's it for now.

I've been.....

• Recovering from a wasp sting that caused my arm to swell from my fingers to my elbow. Apparently my body does not like wasps. Many prescription antihistamines and antibiotics later...I am feeling better.

• Moving stuff, ever so slowly into our new house. There are weeds to whack, bobcats to rent, a huge amount of dirt to scrape out of the yard and replace with clean, non-weedy topsoil, and a fence to put up for the dogs. It will all get done, and even though I wish it was getting done today, I have to be patient. Ugh.

• Dreaming of the juicy blackberries that are growing ripe in our new backyard.

• Thinking about the 7 miles I am supposed to run in the morning (I'm training for a marathon).

• Feeling like I might want to start working on my writing again, maybe make another chapbook.

• Feeling like there is so much stuff I need to surrender, but holding myself back. Things like this school situation, my job, - it all comes down to me consumed with what I want, and not willing to ask or look at what He (as in God) wants/has for me. Feels like I've drifted with the current up to the dam and now I am pulling back, bracing myself, not allowing myself to go over, go through. The other side is calm, I know. And I know He has good things for me. But this surrender is hard.

• Feeling overall: exhausted, overwhelmed, and happy.

A jumble, really.

We just got back from signing the closing papers on our new house. We get the keys tomorrow! This has all been so overwhelming and such a miracle. There were so many reasons for us not to get this house, every time the deal looked hopeless and gone, it all of a sudden sprung back to life. So now we have a lot of work to do! I am going to start packing tonight and hopefully we will get a lot of moving done this weekend.
On another note, I called about a job teaching art at a private school today. Waiting for them to call back. I'm not sure exactly where I'm going to go with this whole "art" thing, so I guess I am knocking on a lot of doors. I do know that this blog is part of my direction with art - a place to chart my progress, develop connections and relationships with other artists out there in the big ol internet world.





For now, a picture of the card I just made for my sister's birthday. It's not the greatest quality picture, but soon, soon, I will get this photo/blog thing figured out and have fabulous pics to show.

A New Season

So here's my blog. Been wanting to do this for awhile now.